Just Wanna Say

I just wanna tell you, that even if you we are separated by distance, even if we've never met, even if we might not even see your face in the future, i'll be there for you no matter what. No matter how old we become, or how weary we get, no matter how much sadness or loneliness we've been through, just don't ever give up, don't ever give in. And remember, that this love is real. 25/12/12

Heartbreak is the present you gave me

It's not that i don't care, it's not that i don't bother. It's not that the tears could dry on their own, when your heart is still bleeding in pain. It's not that i can forget, so easily the day we met. It's not that i choose to be this way, despite my countless pleadings in vain. Many nights have passed, and many nights will pass, with you in my dreams, my eyes my mind. There's to use to erase that memory, nor will i attempt to fill in the gap. Your shadow will always fall on the empty space next to me. Baby, listen, the world is calling, you and me. But you can't see it, no you refuse to believe. I surrender my love to you, only to receive you coldest glance. If nothing can change your mind, then be it, the way we break. The days that we've wasted, and the future that will no longer be remembered. My sincerity lies in the way i speak, but your rejection stings me as heavily as it could be. I will be torn to pieces, but I will not shed a single tear. A promise that i've made for you, is something that will always stay true. As sour as it can be, and as bitter as i feel, you will never understand my pain, and the love and longings i feel for you. So be it, my friend. For now we are no less strangers than friends, and friendship is such a fragile thing, to be broken in a second or a minute more. I have once loved you, with passion and with truth. But the day has come, when our hearts are filled with anger and apology. But i will love you, and knowing that somewhere you will be reminded of me, is enough for me to continue this journey. With, or without you, my love. There's no need for drama, no need for another talk. My birthday has passed, and heartbreak is the present you gave me. -~-

SAD SAD DAY

TODAY IS SUCH A SAD DAY, WE SCREWED UP OUR PERFORMANCE, (THERE ARE MANY FACTORS INVOLVED, SO I SHOULD JUST FORGET ABOUT THAT) AND AFTER A TIRING DAY OUTSIDE, I WENT HOME AND ATE MY DINNER FOR 30 MINUTES. AND THEN THE RESULT IS OUT....WE DIDN'T GET IN =.= i just feel like fucking the world when i see the result, especially when i know perfectly that i deserve to win. i hate this fact. i hate this feeling, i hate everything that has slipped from my hands, but there's nothing i can do right now. It's like i'm forever on this cycle of failure, forever struggling to get to the top, forever trying so hard but failing again. I have no idea how i manage to be so stupid, but i just did. I was so fucking disappointed in myself that i cried. Maybe this trauma will take a super long time to recover, but after all this time, after all the effort, i just thought that i would get something in return, and not just an empty email box. i don't want those broken hearts and lies anymore, i wish that things can be changed, not for the world, but for me. It's not fair how i lost my dream, my motivation, how am i supposed to continue like this? how am i supposed to smile like nothing happened, when the best part of me is gone? i will never be able to face others the same way as before, i would become a coward, even more cowardly than i already was. PLEASE, DON'T DO THIS TO BE, GOD, IF YOU CAN EVER HEAR ME. DON'T TAKE AWAY MY SOLE MOTIVATION, MY SOLE DREAM AND PASSION, DON'T LET ME FALL SO HARD, GIVE ME HOPE TO RISE UP AGAIN, EVEN IF IT'S JUST A LITTLE BIT OF HAPPINESS, I NEED YOU RIGHT NOW, AND I PRAY FOR YOUR GUIDANCE.

Fruity Loops

Okay guys i've decided!!!! I am going to buy Fruity Loops! :) Yup, i don't care if it's hard to use, i like it, and i feel that it suits me too. So i'm gonna get myself a new laptop and then Fruity Loops~and i'm gonna buy a microphone. That's right!!!

Caterpillar! :)

Hey there! :) Today was a quite tiring day (considering that i slept at 2 for the past 2 days) and i had a lot of work to do....but anyway, i almost fell asleep during LA lesson today and it was super hard trying to concentrate when i dont really care about she's saying. And i totally blanked out during chem, hahahaha okay >< Anyway....what's interesting was the recess part :P so Lovell and i went to top up our printing account, and then on the way to canteen we found this caterpillar lying on the staircase near the canteen. I was quite bored and upon the PROMPTING of Lovell, i took out my tissue and scoped up the Caterpillar *screams* muahahahah~~~ I didn't know what to do with it, so i just played with it by dropping it on the floor and then picking it up again (the tissue, i mean) and to be honest i was kinda scared of it, but i just got used to it after a few minutes and i started to walk around the canteen and along the corridor to scare random ppl i see hahahahahahaha you have no idea how funny it is to see the horrified expression of people walking past! i mean, i don't even know them, but i really wanted to LAUGH OUT LOUD when they gasped in horror upon the sight of MY awesome caterpillar~!! WHEEEE~~~oh and a lot of ppl screamed like it was a bomb something =.= but it was sorta expected from a girls school like ours, LMAO. HEHEHEHEHE NOW I FEEL REALLY PROUD OF MYSELF. I SHOULD JUST GIVE MYSELF THE NAME OF PRANKSTER. i wasn't so naughty in sec1 and sec2, so what happened to me now??? oh man...hahahahaha anyway...it was quite fun :) and being a nature-lover, i have to say that caterpillars are beautiful creatures with mesmerizing beauty that deserves to be appreciated by us the blunt and foolish human beings!! that's right, respect to caterpillars yo! :D oh and we showed it to her too :P

Days have gone past, and before we knew it, it's already the end. We've once been so close, and yet those moments only turned into everlasting memories. And we were left with nothing, nothing at all. Many times late at night, i wondered if you hurt like me, i wondered if you ever care, and shed tears like i did. I questioned myself what's the meaning behind our separation, and there was no answer. I just did, and that was all. Even until now, when i look back on our days, i couldn't help but reminisce about what is already gone. I miss you, but i missed you. We both know that there's no way things can go back to their original way, and therefore im trapped in this bitter-sweet love chain with you. If only i was a honest person, i would have told you how much i loved you. And i still do, i do.

one minute we had it all.

史黛拉吧

我有一群朋友。 我们本不是朋友。 偶遇也好，相识也好， 我们变成了朋友， 从此不再孤独。 但正如同每个故事都有结尾般， 我们面临着分离，面临了背叛，面临痛苦与绝望。 我们哭了， 我们笑了， 我们像孩子般， 我们是很好的朋友。 我们哭了， 我们笑了， 戏还在演， 可那昔日的悻悻相依却早已不见。 －送给我最亲爱的朋友们，史黛拉吧。

secrets-one republic

tell me what you want to hear, something that were like those years. i'm sick of all the insincere so i'm gonna give my secrets away. this time, don't need another perfect line, don't care if critics ever jump in line, i'm gonna give my secrets away.

展翅

《走在现实的独木桥上》 我曾经以为，顺其自然便好，但如今才明白，想要展翅飞翔是多么的难。