teehee

i think its really weird that i prefer leaving a post in some random places instead of at home.
lol.
my dental appointment is delayed, so im sitting in front of a computer in the clinic and doing nth. teehee

holiday~!

im back~!
yeah holiday~!
i have a lot to talk about~!
but i forgot some of them~!
and the rest of the speech~!
is probably what im typing now~!
so...
here comes the holidays~!!

The Cranberries

Music is really a magical thing~it brings you inspiration and emotion,and sometimes it was so strong that i didn't wan to leave...why would i?
I was totally surprised to hear Zombie by The Cranberries, well, it is an oooooold song,but still the fact that it was a great song cant be denied. I wonder why ppl stopped singing like that,i mean, they just make music for the sake of making music, because they need to earn a living, beacuse they want fame, because their fans demand them to go on. What's the point of all that? It's not music, it's trash. They seem so shallow now. I wish that Cranberry is not dismissed, they are too awesome to fade from time. But sadly they already did, right?

归零

【命运旋转了一个美丽的弧度，然后降落在原先的起点--归零】

你是否记得儿时的梦想？

那个拉扯着风筝线，笑容比阳光还要 灿烂的孩子，碧海蓝天，微风徐徐，你以为快乐就是如此，生活不需要更多。那时候的你，如同许多孩子一样，有着单纯的梦想，天真的笑容。

我 说：“傻子才会笑得如此幸福。”

其实，我们都是曾是傻子。

后来，你踏入了学校，你懂得了友情的滋味，学业的压力，单调的 黑板和苍白的粉笔囚禁了你所谓的自由，蓝天失了明媚，白云失了无忧无虑，你以往的笑容也被埋葬于一沓又一沓的白纸黑字里。

我问：“谁谋杀 了我们的纯真？”

其实，凶手就是我们自己。

接着，你开始了惯性的生活，每天都重复着同样的节拍，同样的花纹，你学到了很 多，你也失去了不少。你在得失中跌跌撞撞地前行，你儿时的爽朗遗失于退色的旧相片中，你明白了“虚伪”，你懂得了“背叛”，你愤愤不平，为什么世界变得如 此复杂？你身心疲惫，何处才是我栖息的家？你的父母会对你有所要求，你会迎合，也会反抗。不断地鼓励着自己，不断得努力前进，你的斗志燃烧了么？你真的准 备好了么？

我说：“盲目的乐观是愚蠢的。”

其实，盲目的忧郁才是最愚蠢的。

如今，你的一路并非风调雨 顺，你经历的更多事物，每当你以为自己对世界的了解足够深刻的时候，新的考验会出现于你的视野。有时候，你会打开储物箱，翻出几年前的日记，然后微笑着品 读，好像在看一部别人的自传一样，从容不乱。在别人的眼中，你早已释怀，但或许，这只是你的伪装？你会不会在夜晚静静地凝望明月呢？你会不会在失眠时辗转 难眠，像个小孩一样寻找安慰？每当看到别人幸福地微笑时，你的心会不会隐隐作痛，像失去了一件宝贵的东西一样慌张失措？你以为自己成熟了，你勇于面对一切，只 是为了证明这一点。你把脆弱的一面悄悄地隐藏起来，然后戴上虚伪的假面，微笑，继续微笑，不变的微笑，无奈的微笑。

其实，你只是不想或不 能哭吧。
其实，你也想要改变吧，你也在挣扎吧。
青春和烟花，都是如此的千篇一律，绚丽的绽放后消失殆尽，仅仅留下一缕缕青烟。末尾，你站 在废弃的广场，遥望着阴霾的天空。你深邃的目光饥渴地寻找着记忆里的云朵，童年的风筝，那时候的你，祈祷着回到从前，那时候的你，早已被坎坷命运所教会 --- 一切归零。

Run away

every time i tried to run, i went back to the original point.
why? i would ask myself, why am i doing this? there's no answer, because i wasn't looking for one. i know exactly why i'm playing this endless game, it was my own beliefs that pulled me back to the same spot. sometimes u just think too much, and everything got tangled up, too complicated to be solved. so i just run away from it, run and run and run, until i'm tired and started to miss the idea of a shelter, a perch to hide.so i went back and pretended nothing had happened, then it turned out to be a vicious cycle going on and on. it was a chain effect, unbreakable, and every time i attempted to escape from it, i was dragged back and forced to start all over. i hated it, i yearned for a change, so i pulled together the fragments of courage and began a new journey, pretending that it wasn't too late for a decision, and pretending that i would success this time, that the dawn is not far...indeed it was, but i never really believed so.

日界线

——像明明看见前面是沼泽,却没有别的路可走。
——没有选择余地,只能陷进去。

呐。夏树。你是我的倒影阿。
可是我。却不想要承受那么多，你能明白么？

诗人

☆几米：

♬ 除了诗人，
♬ 世上还有谁能在无水的游泳池里泅泳呢？

☇看完这段话后，我笑了。诗人，生命的歌颂者，即使美丽已不再，那悠久的歌声不会停止。这种乐观，不是每个人都能拥有。当我们为花的凋谢而沮丧时，诗人会用神圣的词藻去歌词它残留的幸福。诗人，能让你看到这个世界不可告知的一面，快乐的，伤感的，愤怒的，惆怅的，诗人手中的笔净化了这黑暗的世界，留下的，是纯洁的憧憬。也许吧，诗人是一个遥不可及的童话，他们用一句句散发着玫瑰花香的诗词来诱导你，将你推向华丽的幻想。可谁又会想过，当他们费尽心机编制谎言时，他们自己就活在美妙的虚假中。

旋转木马

☆几米：

♬ 我骑的旋转木马逃跑了。

♬ 但这可怜的木马，
♬ 虽挣脱了束缚，
♬ 却仍在绕着原地打转。

♬ 它旋转了一辈子，
♬ 竟不知该一路往前狂奔，
♬ 才能真正奔向自由。

双胞胎

☆几米：

♬ 双胞胎
♬ 这辈子从没有高兴过。

♬ 他们人生多么无奈，
♬ 总是在不停的互相比较，
♬ 谁比谁优秀，
♬ 谁又连累了谁。

♬ 世界上伟大的角色，
♬ 向来只能让一人独享。

zzz

shut up.
shut off.
shut down.
i don't give a damn.okay?

What's going on?

Damn it.I thought things don't change,at least not that fast! Everything that i once loved, cherished and hoped for had came crashing down on me. I don't understand why. What wrong had i done? I felt betrayed, betrayed by my own confidence. The more i tried to hide the truth, the clearer it became. What's going on? I asked the sky, but there was no reply.

Long time no come sia~~

Hmm...long time no come~~got a lot of things happening. eg. concert? anyways, just had my french oral test today, it sucks. But then don't care already lah, and next week still have exam sia~~~this is so damn stressful!!!
aihzz, i wish i can be smarter.

To: Haibara Ai

You'll be fine, Ai. You will live perfectly well without him,you will be as happy as you want. Just don't stop believing, okay? Even when u're lonely, when u wanted to fall in to dreams, stay awake, go ahead, don't stop, don't turn back, ur world is not crashing down, u have to remain strong. You can cry when you feel sad, but remember to smile after that, 'cos the only person that can cure your heart is yourself. You don't need no one, all u need is to be happy. Memory is a horrifying thing, so try not to think about the past, just let it fade away, got it? Ai, u deserve what you wished for, you deserve a happy ending, and you would have one.
"I will go down with this ship, i won't put my hands up and surrender. There will be no white flag above my door, i'm in love, and always, will be~~"

Sad!!

Damn~~~i think i goin to get one for appro.&est.~~~i know, it's not really hard, but i missed a question =.= and also v. careless~~~should have revised!!!aihzz...ello remedial~~~ello scoldings~~~=.= will teacher call my parents? omg~~~
pls..............................................................
>.<~

Ahh

Ahh...staying at home >.<
Cold+Fever+Bad mood,lol.
Trying to do the past year block test paper...very hard sia~~aihzz many things i didn't revise. eew~~
Have to work hard sia...yup.

Untouchable_Taylor Swift

Untouchable like
A distant diamond sky
Mmm
I'm reaching out
And I just
Can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you
I'm caught up in you

Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
And when you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

It's half full
And I won't wait here
All day
I know you're saying
That you'd be here
Anyway

But you're
Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
Now that you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on

Oh
In the middle of the night
We could form this dream
I wanna feel you
By my side
Standing next to me
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I'm caught
Up in you
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh

Untouchable burning
Brighter than the sun
And when you're close
I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Oh, ohwa, oh

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name
You gotta, come on, come on
Say that we'll be together
Come on, come on
Little taste of heaven

Lala~

Lol,long time no tag sia~
Actually i'm slacking most of the time~
Hmm...(feeling guilty)

Oh yea, Lifeskill Camp~!
Okay,firstly i think it's quite fun lah...except the cheese bread part
Secondly...nevermind the bathing time
Thirdly...disappointed in Talent-night

Generally,it's some sort of precious experience,and sleeping on floor is really nice!（maybe not terrific,but nice)

Btw,we got guzheng nextweek sia..it's holiday leh~
Yeah i know i'm kinda slacking,eeks.
I guess i would just post some pictures that i made~hoho

Ahh

here it goes, another week! what a day...yup, i'm talking about the maths quiz. I think i am goin for remedial.(but then it's not that horrible right?) lol...of course i wouldn't go if i have a chance lah.
borrowed a book from library. it was old and dirty. (but quite nice) and the owner of the book very a funny guy who was addicted to Liverpool (how i know?all the illustrations in the book are labelled Liverpool and its logo) damn, it's spoiling the whole story.
seriously i don't know what to write for LA, or Chinese Newspaper, (yup i threw away the newspaper) lol...and i really wanted to go for the Science Enrichment (yup i want to skip Guzheng) why would i skip Guzheng? cause i never practice lah! my life is just full of "nevers". lol.
the good news is; there's IceCream! hoho...IceCream ily! i hope that they can sell icecream everyday =)
oh yea,today got free yoghurt. it's quite nice lah, but Natalie, Dilys and Hazel all give me theirs (lol) and i just couldn't eat so much, so i gave it to Anne~hehe =D
hmm..that's about all. gogo jojo~

Dada

I'm waiting for you, but you never come. You just disappeared, and left no traces. I waited to touch and feel, but fear threatened me off. I'm all alone, and you couldn't feel. I wondered whether beauty fade, but i knew that tears will dry one day. I laughed and look it the sky, there was nothing but a sunny ray. How much longer could i wait? How much doubts should i take? I was lost, in this world, in this time. I wanted to be set free, so i could run away.

Saturday

Changed a new mouse today, but it is fairly slow to me. Mum bought a new handphone (touchscreen) but then i still prefer my old one, i also lazy to upload songs and pictures into it.(btw, it's games are very lame, and still need to buy)
I wan iphone sia..

GMMMMMMMMM

zzz i am starting to hate maths already..first it's the stupid quiz, then it's the unkown remedial...aiyo God Made Man Man Made Math Math Made Man Mad sia~~i sometimes like maths and sometimes just wanna throw it aside >.< Even more, i couldn't open the stupid ace-learning thing lor!! Emo~~why my laptop always siao siao one...feel like smashing it on the floor.Grr~

Sleepy~~

Sleepy~~revising for Chem~~quiz on Fri~~Clara (hongwen) suddenly call~~donno what's wrong with my msn~~keep sending virus web~~donno what's wrong with my handphone~~keep losing data~~themes sucks~~lol. Complain finish. hehe..

What Dreams May Come

Just watched a movie: What Dreams May Come. It was rapidly shown in HBO, but i never got a chance to watch the ending. The story was very beautiful, and it was the movie that made me cry the most. The whole story is about the seeking of true love, heaven or hell.It's hard to ignore the fascinating sight, touching setences, and the wonderful ending. We knew how to forgive the others, but not ourselves. Sometimes we sank into something so deeply that we got lost. Sometimes there's no one else that could bring us back expect our own wills. We keep expecting others to be strong without realising how weak ourselves are. Yes, you control the world. Never ever give up on yourself.

At Sch Library!

ohmuahaha...i'm here in sch library..using com!! (am i allowed to go bloggin?) tag tag.. :)

Hmm Tuesday~

Tuesday~~first training for Guzheng!! ^^ LOL the seniors are quite nice lah, ( but i didn't get to know them very well yet ) Many sec 1s know how to play~~and got 2 ppl from DSA, they must be very pro!
We practise Guzheng in classrooms (aihzz,i miss hongwen's guzheng room) and there are really a lot of ppl playing~~( so it's quite competitive lah ) I got tuition later, so i left early...but the door was locked! (my bag's inside) so i rushed down to GO but the teacher there doesn't believe me...so i was like trying to explain to her for a longgg time and finally she handed me the key. Then i went up agn...open the door, take my bag and my Time Traveler's Wife and returned the key to GO~~ I even forgot to buy milo leh...(but that's not the point)
Hmmm. Incan=Jason? i=pikalalaa?

五月天

I don't realy like S.H.E actually~~(but their songs are quite nice lah). And this is my favourite one :) (btw,it's from abulm PLAY.it's the best album they ever had~~)ppl say S.H.E is going downturn, but then it's not surprising..they're like popular for years already? and they still got the movie-thing to support their career~~(yeah,like i care) still...to the memory of S.H.E and their old glory~~here comes 五月天！！（i know i sound lame, but there's nothing else to write about leh~~)

Sorry

Sorry...i will treasure the happy moments we once had. You'll do fine without me~~ please understand. I don't mean to leave like that either. Sometimes i really hate to make choices. It's so hard to abandon anything. How much i wished it never happened...

Chinese Debate!

Ohyea i joined Chinese Debate~~!
Lol actually it wasn't my first choice from the beginning, (because of guzheng) but i was strongly fascinated by it and decided to give it a try.And the result proved to be quite pleasing! (which means they accepted me lah)I don't think there's much hope in guzheng...(and i don't really like the teacher) so i changed my choice order...(aihzz,sorry guzheng team.but u can still manage without me hor?) lol~
Anyways,i went for training today and yesterday (and guess what?it's fun!partly because we haven't start teaching yet i think~) we played games and got to know each other better(lol.) there's singaporeans and malaysians and chinese scholars in our team! (isn't that nice?) although we didn't win any prices or awards like guzheng or chinese dance or chinese orchestra~~(aihzz..that's definitely disappointing) but the point is about learning not winning...(maybe the opponent is too strong?okay..let's just accept the truth then) and this can be an opportunity to train our confidence and thinking skills!(always look at the bright side,k?)
so...that's about it...(oh btw, the homework are starting to flood in now~and so is stress)

Smile~

Lol...i really think we should all learn to smile~~yup. ^^
Okay,here's a few cute pictures i have found.

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"Every second without you is dreadful, only you can make wake me
up."
---The Time Traveler's Wife
Sometimes,i want to be Clare.She is beautiful,brave,and talented.She has long wavy hair that every girl envys,and she was borned in a rich family.Her life is perfect,until she met Henry.She was 6,and Henry 48.Since that day,a secret lies in Clare's heart.She started to knew this guy,and she was fascinated by him.It never hurts to love,but love hurts you.Clare was hurted,and Henry too.But all the pain will evaporate as long as they are together.They are meant for each other.There are troubles and worries,but they always manage to conquer them;there are doubts and uncertainties,but nothing can stop them.I love it,because i know there will be an happy ending.I can always flip through the pages and read the last chapter when i feel curious.I can choose to abandon the book,or throw it in a rubbish bin if the ending is not happy.But can i read through my life?Can i ignore it when i feel so?I cant,nobody can.

"When u whisper my name in my ears, time stops."
---The Time Traveler's Wife

Time never stops,and neither do love.

Olala.

It's been a week since i last posted on blog. Certainly, it's a interesting and exciting week. Everything is so new and worth exploring. It's just 5 days, but i have already felt the change. I don't know it's good or bad, not everything can be sorted into these two categories. Am i hiding the reminiscence or do i just want to move on? Life hasn't been perfect for me, but i should be happy in the most natural way. I'm listening to "camp rock"--too cool. I'm not really a "cool" person~~i can get emotional quite often, and simply distaste cool-acting. Everyone is special in their own ways, why don we have to follow other's views? ( but not disobey all )Traylor Swift's soft and charming voice leads me to the dreamy path of romance, just like everyone else, i am so tiny and insignificant in this world, but yet sometimes insignificance is a good thing, for you don't have to care too much~~ you can watch the rain hitting the ground, you get to observe leaves dancing in breeze, and the best part is, you get to chose to be somebody.