School!

Ahh...i am going to Nanyang Girls!! lol, this is exciting and yet worrying. what if i don't fit in there? what if my english isn't good enough? what if all the ppl around me are very hard working and smart? lol...i am scared, and yet, i wanted to face this challenge.^^ believe in yourself!

Eh,eh

i am sitting in front of my laptop, blankly. it's only music and me, in my little room. i am expecting a sudden interrupt, a surprise, from someone, someone that is important to me. and who could that guy be?
everything seems simple, and easy, but it won't last forever, nothing will. i have a strong urge to do something, sing or dance, i want to celebrate this peacefulness, but with who? who could really understand me, and know me truly? if i am Clare, who would be Henry?
Clare felt happy when Henry is with her, and when Henry's gone, she missed him every minute and second. Could this be the same situation? why do i feel so happy with him?
what is true love? is it supposed to creat pain? does it require adventures? do u always stay with someone u love? how do u know that u love him?
and how do u tell him that u care about him? questions pop up in my head...i don't understand, and probably refuse to.
i look back in memories, i found many love, and then i realised that love is with us all the time. but maybe i am just expeting someone to point me out.

Hamster Dance!!

Maplestory? or is it just a story?

Come to think about it,i have been playing maplestory for a few months. I love the game, but i hate the idea of playing it. It depresses ppl who cared for me, i hate to do that. I don't know, when i was sticking with audition i didn't have that feeling, but when it is maplestory, i felt sick. You might want to ask why are u still playing it when u felt unpleasant? My answer is: I felt contented there.
It's not about the whole hack-protecting system or the nice-music-background-cash-shop, it's about the ppl in this game and the world that the game have created for us. Yes, to lure us, i know. Many ppl toke this as home and they eventually neglected who they really loved, but it's only because they don't felt loved in the real world. They are lack of sth, sth important to them, a pride maybe? a satisfiction perhaps? a feeling of belong and responsibility, that's not what they are allowed in real life, in the reality. Thus, they seek for it in the computer game, the virtuality, something that seemed to be true but isn't, something that make u feel safe but actually designed to make u feel empty. The more empty u get, the more u want to stay in this world, because it has became the only hope and reason for you, the only future of urs, nothing matters more then this and nothing can win your loyalty towards this dazzling trap.
So why did i remained in this scary place when i know what is happening? I admit,i am lured to it,i don't know if i addicted to it but if i did,i would not be here talking endlessly to a machine. I just needed something to hear me, something that i can confess to, ( zzz, coco, stop it, it's definitely not u! ) and the computer seemed to be the best audience of mine, something that can keep a secret and something that can be trusted ( yea, and in the end coco still got to read it ) it doesn't matter anyways, cos if u are not the guy that i am talking about, if u are not the one that i truly want to confess to, all these are useless.So just sit tight and listen tentatively ( quietly at the same time, thx ).
When i first started this game, i thought i can lose it easily. Really, just liked what i did when i played audition, i didn't addict to it, i didn't sank into that cruel virtuality. I won that battle, i succeeded in getting ride of it( well, cos there's something wrong about the software and i just cant fix it ) So anyways, i didn't miss it at all when i left( is that because i started to play maplestory? oh, nvm! ) I started maplestory with curiousity ( that's nothing wrong, right! ) but i soon found out that this world is completely different from the one in audition. This world is a warmer and nicer one ( not saying it's lovable,cos ppl still scold bad words ) and u can actually found many pleasant little details about it. It's like when u leveled up, and when u received generous guildance from a pro and when u won a battle all by urself, all these little sprinkles of ingredient make me feel contented, what i truly cared is not this game, but how i felt when i am playing it. And above all these, I found a true fren, someone that really understood me, someone that make me feel secured and warm,Incand3scent. I met in when doing a quest. I was totally lost and pissed off. Nobody seemed to care anyhow, they just passed by me like i am nothing but air to them, everyone except Incand3scent. He lead me to the correct way and helped me with my quest, he even gave me some equips. I was jubilant and grateful, so i added him on my bl. At that tiime,I wondered why he helped me rather then going away, like any pro would do, and he wasted half his afternoon finishing off stumps just to help me to complete and quest. I even felt ashamed and uncomfortable when he did that,discreetly wishing him to go offline or leave.But when days passed, we got to know each other more. He was gentle and nice, and helped me many times when i didn't know what to do. But when i asked him if he got any hobbies or dreams, he said "no". And when i inquired for a reason, he simply said i would understand much later. Something about him told me that he was not having an easy life, or at least he didn't love what he's having. He was pessimistic and hurt,but yet so perfectly normal.( i mean, he plays maple right? that's supposed to be a relaxing and childish game and ppl who plays it are either childish or too relaxed)I wanted to know more but rejected every time. Soon the pressure arrived, i was continuously blamed for playing maplestory so long and i thought i deserve that. I should fall for this trap, this hideous and unreal trap that many teenagers have fallen into. I decided to say good bye to Incand3scent and all my other frens, but to my disappointment, he wasn't on9. He used to on9 in afternoon and at night but suddenly, everything about him was silent and vanishing. He left no traces of hint, or clue, or messages, he seemed to left this game, this world, this trap, and fell asleep. But why? This world matters to him! I know it does, because when i asked him why he had chosen maplestory rather then his family and frens that he once said he cherished, he replied he was "silly". And i said "you're not, it's just that u wanted to escape, like i do. You wanted to live in another environment and another style, you wanted to get something that u cant reach in reality here, like everyone does." He felt silent and said "yes" and then he felt silent agn. Was it because of my words he started to give up? Was it because of my boostful speech about escaping into emptiness made him realise that it's time to quit? Well, if he's ready for it, so am i. I am always ready to leave, to delete this software and quit this game, i am just waiting for him, wanting him to leave with me, so i won't have to endure all these loniless and emptiness myself. I just needed a fren, and that's all. But did he thought of it? Or he just left because he have to, or need to. I kept telling myself that he will never do this but yet everything is possible. Maybe he didn't care about me that much, and thought i would do fine without him. Well...i am alright,but i sincerely hope he could be back. All these wonderful yet short memories that were engraved in my heart prevented me from forgetting him. I don't want to forget him, i want him,my fren back. Maybe he didn't know how eager i am,and maybe he wouldn't know that i was talking about him right now,but even if he didn't,it's fine.Like what many ppl said, the further you stay away from virtuality,the safer you are.To me,he's part of the virtuality.However,the further he is from me,the more upset i got.Time will wash away everything and i have started to feel its power already.But like what i said,i don't want to forget about him,i want to cherish him as a fren and i want him to know that i care.

Hmm~

Well...i got my Guzheng result, it turned out to be quite good!( at least to me ) Cheer Vee got a higher score and she was so happy about it. ( lol? ) Anyways, i am continuing my Guzheng lessons( why? i don't know, maybe i felt fluttered and wanted to do better )I really liked Guzheng to tell the truth, and it's just that i thought i would felt ashamed if i didn't do well( lol, don't laugh )I think the whole movie promise will not be granted, but who cares?We should learn to cherish what we had,right? That's something that i learned from a very good fren of mine.
So, just continue to work hard~!

Guzheng. Exams Result. Secondary School. New Beginning.

Guess wat? I just had my Guzheng Grade6 Examination! I don't think it was a terrific performance and i was almost sure that i would lose my distinction, now i was just hoping for a decent merit. And~~~I got my PSLE results!! ^^
Well...it's quite good.( not the 290 sort of good ) Actually i expected more then that, but nevermind, this could satisfy me too. Anyways...Mum was totally happy about it ( i only i could get a few marks more ) and it was just nice to fit Dunman's requirement. I hope i could get in. Grandpa and Grandma were persistent that i go to Nanyang because it was visited by prime minister of China, Hu Jing Tao. Well~~~fine...I appreciate their support...and don't blame me if i cant get in.
Think about it~~~even if i got into those fancy schools, i would be in the last class. Well...not that i minded the face thing, i have got used to the environment of staying in first class, with every teacher reminding us that we are the "best" in Hong Wen. I think i would felt very discouraged if i got into last class in Dunman. ( But again, it's Dunman's last class! And don't forget they have a huge library!! It's fantastic!!! )
And also...i wondered what will happen if i joined Dunman's Guzheng team. It would be awakward. The girl who you kicked in DSA came back~~~LOL, i felt contented about this idea...but i don't think the Guzhen teacher would. In fact, i didn't like him so much. If only it could be some one nice and young like Peng Lao Shi...then i would love to join the team!! ( well...it's a "Gold-Of-Honour" Guzheng team afterall ) I wondered if i would fit in in the new school. I always stick with Coco,Momo, and Nono from the past, but now, without them and without the foolish jokes and silly tricks, i doubted my social ability. Maybe i will...maybe i will find a place somehow and somewhat, and maybe i will get to know my classmates really well. Humm...yup!
Another thing that scared me is NJC ( the school isn't scary, the broading system is ) I mean...i have never gone to a broading school before. ( the trip to U.S.A? oh...please ) I did went out with school for 2 times without my parents, and i lived with my friends in hotel, but it was supposed to be some learning journey and it was totally different from BROADING!! I would have to stick with my dom-mates 10 hours ( at least, if u add the sleeping time ) per day and 30 (28, or 31) days per month!!! And guess how many months are there in one year? You got it! 12MONTHS! Ah...i guess i might suffocate if i went to NJC. But then~~~it could be called an experience, too. Probably not a wonderful one, but it make ppl learn soomething. Mum stayed in broading school, too. ( in high school and university ) She says it train ppl to be stronger and smarter. ( oh...it that true? ) And she encouraged me to be dependent. How can i refuse her? If i really happened to go to NJC, i guess i would just have to try my best ( to survive? that sounds scary ) and if i am going to any other school, i will try my best too!!

Is it time?

After exams,it's just all fun.Malacca,uno,maplestory,handphone,inter-class and inter-school.(well...despite the fact that our school lost the inter-school,i would still consider that as a form of enjoyment).I was bored and unsatisfied long time ago.Come to think about it,i would rather want busy revisions and homework then this relexing schedule.Really,when i am playing this and that,i felt that i have lost something,something important to me.I hate this feeling.It is a concoction of confusion and fear.I feared that one day when i remenber this leisure time,i would regret myself for having such a long break.I know it by heart,and yet i don't want to give the fun up.
Momo say today is the last day of school.She said that we will never meet each other afterwards.It was pretty upsetting,but we just have to face it.I have no idea what will be waiting for me,but i should not give myself up now.I know that i am not perfect.I was stubbon and naughty,and sometimes childish.I was scared of loneliness,and a bit bad-tempered.I hate betrayal,i hate unfairness,but i wasn't fair all the time either.Maybe there are two people inside me.One is on the justice's side while the other is selfish and annoying.When they act together,everything seem to be fine but when one of them outraged the other,i become unbalanced.I live in a world that can be called neither fair or unfair.I see the world spinning and the people changing.However,it is nothing that we can do about.That's why,i decided that i should at least do my best.I should at least be a person that have the ability to help this world.I am not sure that i can do it all by one person's strength,for i am neither superman or wonderwomen.However,there must be a start.It can anyone.And i,am going to move towards my believe.

不能说的秘密

昨天看了不能说的秘密。报纸上说这部戏任显生嫩，毕竟是周董的处女作，可是奇怪的是，我并没有在意这些，因为已经有了悲伤结局的心理准备，我淡然地看了下去，可是没想到，原来最后的结局是快乐美好的。。。

我没有哭，很高兴自己没有哭。我讨厌自己如此动情地模样，仿佛中了谁的圈套，明明知道这是编剧的可恶，可仍无法调节心理，就好像早上醒来虽然知道自己要迟到了却仍舍不得起床的感觉。

我决不是小雨的那种性格，温柔文雅，还带着一些忧郁。也只有碰见JAY的时候，小雨才会打开心中的那扇窗，拥抱窗外的阳光。看得出来，小雨是真心喜欢JAY的。她不是一个活泼明媚的学生，可是却是个痴情的女生。当看到她孤独无助地哭泣时，我暗暗地感到心痛，我总以为自己不会像她一样傻，可是在爱情面前又有谁是理智的呢。。。我们都是受了伤的刺猬，为了更好地保护自己而刺痛别人。小雨就是那一只刺猬，伤痕累累，到最后连爱都不敢相信。别人都以为她很坚强，很勇敢，可是他们又怎么会知道最疼是小雨呢？当JAY在悲伤地弹琴时，他又怎么会知道小雨在窗口默默地流泪呢？误会，可恶的误会，就是这一件件的误会撕碎了小雨和JAY脆弱的执着。

还好，他们的是那么的深，以至于JAY由忧郁化为的勇敢。他不是个死心塌地的人，可是他是坚持的。他还没有和她说他爱她，他还没牵她的手，他还没陪她一起看日出，看日落，幸福地度过一生。这些，他都没有做到，可是他相信他能够做到。就算它们之间相差二十年，就算他们是不同时代的人，就算她一次又一次地误解了他，他还是爱她的，而她也无法忘记他。相爱的人不一定能在一起，可是这要坚持了，努力了，就算最终没有在一块儿，也无悔。而他们在结尾时，终于得以守护于彼此的身边。

back from malaysia.

Yeah,finally we are back in singapore.
I'm not saying that malaysia is not good,it is just that when u are away from ur old environment,u just couldn't help but miss it.However,i did have a lot of fun at malaysia.
Well,the fun includes the shopping,too.I bought dozens of cute accessories and food.Actually they can all be bought from singapore or china or anyplace else,but i enjoy the freedom of shopping.I can chose what i want and buy it without further thinking or worry,and i don't have to worry about the saving money part because i know i can spend what i want.Also,it was nice to browse with my friends.They gave u opinions and advices and u don't necessarily have to listen to them all the time!haha...Anyways,the journey was interesting and exciting and the arrangement was proper and appropriate( except the hotel-air-cond-so-cold and the arrive-at-singapore-so-late part )Luckily i brought my handphone with me the whole journey or i will be bored to death!It was just so noisy on the bus and there was nothing to do but sleep without music and uno cards( and eating ).
Talking about sleeping,coco have sent me pictures of ppl sleeping.( Clara, Shiying, LinLaoShi...)Lol, they all sleep with a style.I wonders if anyone took picture of me sleeping( i hope it won't be awful ) but to think about it again,who cares!Take then take lor.
We also fought for showering order,and at last we decided that scissors paper stone will be the best solution.Lol.( before we realise about the hair-dryer )and i found out that coco like to watch violent TV shows and nono hate noises.
The food was nice and just enough for all of us.( Mrs Chiam still say have to play game to eat food,i think that rule doesn't work for our table cos there wasn't much food left afterall ) and i just loved the breakfast at the hotel( but i didn't really take much due to the awkward staring from coco and nono )I also learnt one thing from the trip,it is There Is A Lot Of Ants Plus Mosquitoes Plus Spiders At The Village.I also bought a beautiful necklace. ( LinLaoShi bought a funny fan-hat that can a hat and a fan )The lunch was awesome,too!Guess what,buffet!!( not the Mrs Chiam's buffet )Guess again,free ice-cream!!!( but somebody also bought ice-cream )Guess for the third time,I took everything in my sight!!!!( except the salad )Lol,haha.After that,we went back to bus and set off for singapore.
So,it was kinda fun,hor?Well,i don't know.But when we were heading for malaysia,i thought that maybe this trip would be the final time.After a few weeks,we would be separate,and we would head for different paths.I wasn't saying this just for the sake of expressing,but talking about this seriously.I don't hate this class,and i don't love it.When staying in this group,i have witnessed many unfair things and also many kind acts.This world was an unfair world itself,but at the same time a beautiful place.I would rather believe it is beautiful then to think of it as an ugly,dirty,injustice one.I would rather chose to do something meaningful and helpful rather then hurting or harming.Maybe it was just my idealistic thoughts and will one day turn into practical thinking,but at least i faced it.I faced the fact that we are all changing and i faced the truth that we are leaving each other.I wasn't an extremely brave person,i wasn't an extremely smart person,either.l was just i,a girl who had dreams and believes,a girl who wanted to be happy.It was pretty simple,and true,just like life was supposed to be simple and true,of course,for a happy person.

wow!

Yeah!Finally the exams are over!
Today is higher chinese, the last paper.I have been planning what i am going to do after the exams since yesterday and now i can finally relax!But somehow, i felt a bit uneasy,too,for the fullstop of exams mean the approach of results and even more,separation. Not that i have addicted to my friends,but i really enjoy the good time we had,and when i think about leaving them,i felt...well,i felt disappointed,as if i have lost my friendship.However,it's not true.I have not lost my friendship,it's just that we all have to move on to our paths and we still can see each other, right? Or play games together or chat on MSN.Well,i wondered about the playing game togethrer part,for my audition suddenly seem to break down( with all my cash items!) and i just cant download maplestory. In addition, i have topped up 30k in my account!!Am i going to be stuck there, forever? No!!! I hate the thought of having to stare at my cash and got nothing to do. I just wan to have some fun, and audition or maplestory is the only that i can relax myself. Why, why have this happened! I mean,i am supposed to enjoy myself crazily with my friends and laugh and cheeer and chit-chat with them. But now i have to redownload and all, aihzz...Still, i was quite glad that i found a new templete for my blog and did a lot of decoration plus new attachment plus tagging. Lol.And i was quite grateful that i can use my computer now!!( wait, is laptop! my dear laptop!) ^^

let's work hard for our beloved ones, our countries, and ourselves!!!

yeah.
today is Children's day in singapore plus 中国国庆. love it!!
anyways,i really enjoy the whole 国庆. very proud to be a chinese@!
my laptop is locked up, so cannot play audition. but then, i still can use mum's laptop for a while.
PSLE is approaching.very nervous.
i think i didn't really perform that well during oral and listening comprehension, that's why i need to improve my paper 1 and paper 2. i got no choice.
are they going to be hard? i don't know.
i hope since and english could be easy. not saying that i can deal with extremely hard chinese and mathematics, it's just that i am a bit weaker in science and english.
i think i've tried quite hard on improving them.but there are still so much things that i donno,i still got to learn a lot sia.
and i still donno wat school to go to. lol. i am serious.i wondered if any of my classmates have decided. cos they all look so...err, confidnent? i donno leh.
i never really worried about it back in shanghai.mum had always helped me in deciding. but now i have to depend on myself.
i think this is a challenge, but i am glad to face it.
anyways, why worry.? it all depends on a PSLE result, doesn't it?
wow, marvellous. the performance is terrific!

Exams after Exams

Finally Prelim is over. We got our results. I think i still need to work hard on Science.Quite sad to see myself getting not as much as all the "science freaks".
Chey, they all comparing results.
What's so interesting to compare. I don't even care about how much they get ( okay, i still need to know the average mark, right) and i don't think it matters so much who gets top1 or top2 in Prelim. They said i am afraid to lose. I can't deny it, bu i was sure i wouldn't mind getting Top2 in Prelim.As long as i improved, it's something to celebrate. There are really a lot of "proes" in our class. I am a little stressed, at first. But think about it, we are students. Our mission is to learn but not to compare. To excell. I believe.
Anyways, after prelim it goes PSLE and after PSLE there are still many exams and events waiting. I don't think there will be any time to stop. But i am happy about it. I enjoy studying. Really. I enjoying sitting in my room and reading and writing and doing all sorts of homework and revision paper. I love to explore new questions and challenges. Although sometimes, i would really like to have a break and count the stars on the sky, i want to move on, i want to embrace the bright future in front of me, i guess that's what i want.

^^

lol. tomorrow is my birthday. ^^ happy happy.
wan to reaward myself..hehe, how about @cash.?
lol.haha.
exams are coming,too.
must jys!!!

Hehe.

now very busy already.
busy studying, busy revising, and busy thinking.
about wat.? alot of things.
including audition.
just started rewujie, decide to quit. too boring. i cant even handle audition, why would i wan to waste time on another trash game.?
but even if i abondaned rewujie, another game will come. and i will always find sth else to do.
like reading.
working on The House On The Gult. quite nice. and wat's more, the author of this book wrote Shadow Children, which is one of my favourite books.
of course, i got a lot of favourtie books.
and movies.
but come to think of it, i cant even mention a name of movie that i liked. i usuallt felt quite annoyed with this, and squeezed my memories to figure out one. but now.? no thanks, it's just a movie. it gives me a good time, and i enjoys it , and that would probably be all. movie makers make movie to earn money aside from providing inspiration and entertainment for the audience. win-win. and what's more.?
time will just erase everything.
i have realised it.
but there are still a lot of beautiful things in this world, right?!
and we have to realise it, too. instead of staring at the falling flower and sighing, we should muster our courage and work towards our goal, right?!
hehe, stylish.?
hehe, jys!!

我心中有一盏灯

我心中有一盏灯，
它照亮了我的人生。

我心中有一盏灯，
它使我的心有了分寸。

我心中我一盏灯，
它是我爱的守护神。

我心中有一盏灯，
它是一道神圣而又神秘的门。

这世界太大，太怪，
有了这盏灯，为我照亮前进的方向；

有了这盏灯，为我带点燃生命的希望；

有了这盏灯，我的前途不再迷茫。

有时候，当我的世界一片黑暗时，
是它，为我找到了梦想。

有时候，当我的快乐坠落时，
是它，为我带回了阳光。

有了它，我才发现，
这世界有多么的宽广，这世界还有许多的梦想。

心如海，爱无边，
我的心中有一盏灯，一盏永不熄灭的灯。

HEHe

hehe, today performed at Suntec. Saw Inez. Her hair looked ugly, lol, no offence lah.
At firsy CheerVee and I am gonna to perform a song together, after our group performing, but then not enought time so we just have to change our plan. eek,but still i think it was quite fun just to sit there and practise near the stage. there were many schools performing, i heard lah. At first wan to go shopping and have dinner at suntec one sia, but since we still have to help the teachers to arrenge the guzhengs, i went back to school with some students.And u know wat.? I think i lost the perform uniform's rad jacket. very cute one sia. lol. What a busy but happy day. HEHe.

gege

我只是个孩子
我只是个孩子，偶尔会叛逆，偶尔会耍酷，可是却默默地隐藏着迷茫与无助。
我只是个孩子，偶尔会发嗲，偶尔会撒娇，可是仍悄悄地掩饰着孤独与惆怅。
我只是个孩子，偶尔会在冲凉时唱歌，偶尔喜欢躺在阳台上数星星，孩子有不变的梦，孩子有纯洁的心；
我只是个孩子，一个向往快乐，一个追随光明的孩子，这世上有千千万万的孩子，这世上有许许多多的梦想，某一天，我们会长大成人，有朝一日，我们会回首想起，当初叠得那个幸运星，曾经写下誓言的笔记本，那片草地，那棵樱树，我们瞬间凋落的友谊，我们昔日珍藏的记忆。
所以，我只是个孩子，一个渐渐长大的孩子，陪我睡觉的娃娃会告诉你，孩子有着单纯美好的梦。

HOHo

Tomorrow we gonna perform at Suntec City!
Hoh
So nervous.
Got one part need to play with CheerVee, sad, i don wan leh.
Aihzz.
So need practise.
Today very tired, got Sup class and Greatmind.
New have few time to on com.
YAYAYAY

-

yesterday,today,tomorrow,i decide to forget you.
past,present,future,i decide to forgive you.
not because i was pissed,but because i wan to free myself.
from all the thoughts, doubt and worries.
get back to the free and happy me, the cheerful and bright me.
that's what i want.
you might not know what i felt.
just like i do not know what you are like.
but it does not matter, as far as i have decide to let go.
get back to the reality,and truth,and faith,and world.
that's what i care.
we are not living in a story.life is not a story.
there might not be always an happy ending, but we will find out way to it.
for so long, i have blamed myself so many times, but i wasn't wrong.i did what i did, and it was my choice, i did it in my way. i should have no regrets. i should get over you.
and life will be easier for me, and easier for you.
maybe u don even realise it, u don even realise how much i cared.
but i did, and i hated the feeling.
i hated the unreal, fake fansy that tangled around my mind, getting my mad.i have the control, and now no more lies.
no more stories that i made up to comfort myself.
i am going to get over you.
i don't know for how long, but i believed i would still remneber you oneday,and laugh at myself for being so silly.
but who else don.?
it was the precious memory. i am not going to erase it. i will lock it. deep in the ocean. no way you going to make my cry again.
no way i going to fool myself again.
i am stepping forward, leaving the past behind. that's what i should and supposed to do.
and now it's time for dream.
jys.

okok.

today got a lot of things to report one leh.
first, i had a fight with momo.
then, i had a fight with coco.
then, coco cried.

but i got reason one. momo so irritating u know. then coco also. told her don talk so much already, still gossip gossip gossip, and momo even proer, she refuses to listen.==
then, to show my apology, i bought ice cream for momo and me. but cause coco already bought herself, so i never buy her one. and nono staring at us, but i also never buy her, cos not enought money sia...momo see nono very kelian, so she buy nono an ice cream.
mine is mint with cookie, coco and momo chocolate, nono strawberry sauce with vanilla(did i spell it correct? lol)
then we all happy.
end of story.

today at school, LinLaoShi told us some very intruging stuff(about handphone.?) luckily yuelin explained it to me, or i will felt weird.


also, today i broke tot and joined a very pro fam.but the master so noob sia..anyways, ranking 45 leh, nice right.coco felt a bit hurt. cos i didn't buy her ice cream and still broke tot, lol, she keep nagging about the one dallor she spent on her chocolate ice cream.

okay, that's about it for today. jys.

Hao.

lol.Saturday also got sup class.?aihzz...
btw.now that gt jie ying, xing yu, jin min, yun jie, shi hui, stacey, inez, chu hua, xin meiplay audi. (also got me) .shi hui say she level 44.
today momo and nono went coco house.i also wan. maybe next time.
audition gonna level up. yun jie ask me to send her spiky pony(infenitive) . so greedy. but if i can win 60k cash, i think i will send her lah.btw the card is cute.
yesterday when i going home after guzheng, i saw mrs chiam. she talkiing with another teacher. then i wan to say hi to her, but she didn't hear me. lol. she also talk 145. but before us. (heng?) lol.
mei yi say she play a game like audi. the cloth look cute, but the hair is ugly sia.
oh yea hor. shumin never come for gz, then ms kong wan to c her. but she never go at recess. lol. jinmin say they playing hide and seek.?lame...
okay,jys bah.

SayHello

lalala, i am back!!!!!
anyways,we have just returned to out school~life.sound sweet.i am still adjusting to the "new environment" lol.nothing new actually.except the madness of teacher.and one more thing,the madness of people around me.
i can't blame them.but they are simply too excited.take momo and coco as examples,i really dislike them sometimes,they are so big-mouthed,lol.and teacher too.she is so lame.but still,she is my teacher, respect must be showed towards older ppl,right?hehe..
and audition.?oh,it's getting lame.i didn't even want to train so much anymore.wat's the point.?but still..i love its mall..everytime when i login au i would want to go to the mall.i began to dislike the clug dance and all these,too.it's so fake,u c.
and addicted to baidu bloggin.hehe.the blogksins are nice.
btw,i spent my holiday watching rm.it was nice.but not anyway.the story itself is a breakthrough in the jap anime history.good thinking.they should put it on show in tv.
i love creative and inspiring stuff.and i love stellar(stella).i don knw if time will wash away my love towards these,but right now,i needed a feel of home.i need to see something that is warm and bright,and familiar and home..i needed to feel the love and hope and sunshine and the beautiful changing flyer.
and what i need most now,is to tidy up my messive mind.i need to cool down my head.and only after that,i would find what i want.my dream.yes.and only after that,i would fullfill my dream.yes.jys!!!!!

蔷薇少女

まだ云わないで
呪文めいたその言叶

“爱”なんて羽のように軽い
嗫いて
パパより优しいテノールで
夺う覚悟があるのならば

百万の蔷薇の寝台に
埋もれ见る梦よりも
馨しく私は生きてるの

どうすれば丑いものが
蔓延ったこの世界
汚れずに羽搏いて行けるのか

ひとり茧の中
学びつづけても
水晶の星空は
远すぎるの

まだ触れないで
その栗える指先は
花盗人の甘い踌躇い
触れてもいい
この深い胸の奥にまで
届く自信があるのならば

白马の王子様なんか
信じてるわけじゃない

罅割れた硝子匣に
饰られた纯洁は
灭びゆく天使たちの心臓

また明日も目覚めるたびに
百年の刻を知る
眠れない魂の荆姫

くい込む冠
一雫の血に
ああ现実が真実と
思い知るの

まだ行かないで
月光の结界で
过ちに気づいてしまいそう
安らかなぬくもりに抱かれ
壊れたい私は
罪の子なのでしょうか

そっと零れてくる
涙の意味さえわからない

もう云わないで
呪文めいたその言叶
“爱”なんて锁のように重い
嗫いて
パパより优しいテノールで
どんな覚悟もできるならば

さあ誓ってよ
その震える唇で
蜜を摘む狩人のときめき
攫っていい
この深い胸の奥底を
射抜く勇気があるのならば

贵方 捕まえたらけして
逃がさないようにして

再别康桥

再别康桥

轻轻的我走了，
正如我轻轻的来；
我轻轻的招手，
作别西天的云彩。
那河畔的金柳，
是夕阳中的新娘；
波光里的艳影，
在我的心头荡漾。
软泥上的青荇，
油油的在水底招摇；
在康河的柔波里，
我甘心做一条水草！
那榆荫下的一潭，
不是清泉，
是天上虹揉碎在浮藻间，
沉淀着彩虹似的梦。
寻梦？撑一支长篙，
向青草更青处漫溯，
满载一船星辉，
在星辉斑斓里放歌。
但我不能放歌，
悄悄是别离的笙箫；
夏虫也为我沉默，
沉默是今晚的康桥。
悄悄的我走了，
正如我悄悄的来；
我挥一挥衣袖，
不带走一片云彩。

too cool

Too cool for my dress
These shades don't leave my head
Everything you say is so irrelevant
You follow in my lead
You want to be like me
But you just don't want to be loved and hated

I can't help the way I am
Hope you don't misunderstand

But I'm too cool
Yeah I'm too cool
To know you
Don't take it personal
Don't get emotional
You know it's the truth
I'm too cool for you
You think your hot but I'm sorry, you're not
Exactly who do you think you are
Can tell you what you haven't got
When we walk into the room
I'm too cool for you

Lucky I'm so nice
Even I'm surprised
You are still allowed to be in my crew
Show you how it's done
If you want to be someone
Just watch me and you'll learn some

Me, myself, and I agree
You'll never catch up with me

Cause I'm too cool
Yeah I'm too cool
To know you
Don't take it personal
Don't get emotional
You know it's the truth
I'm too cool for you
You think your hot but I'm sorry, you're not
Exactly who do you think you are
Can tell you what you haven't got
When we walk into the room
I'm too cool for you

You see I'm all beauty, brains, and talents
I got it all
Well others have to try all their lives
Still they never get the call
That's the difference between you and me
Obviously
I'm a natural
I'm the real deal

I can't help the way I am
Hope you don't misunderstand

But I'm too cool
Yeah I'm too cool
To know you
Don't take it personal
Don't get emotional
You know it's the truth
I'm too cool for you

Too cool
Yeah I'm too cool
To know you
Don't take it personal
Don't get emotional
You know it's the truth
I'm too cool for you



Send "Too

tag tag

lol, just wan to tag tag^^
but anyways, since i have not benn on for a long period, i decide that i should write something by heart.
firstly, it;s about school.
we had our SA1, and now we are going to welcome our holiday!! yeah!!!!
then...i was told to attend a leadership training camp, but which leader i am and which leadership was performed by me. but anyways, i am quite excited and curios about it.
guzheng!!!!my beloved fren.i was practising hard these days(hard?come on) okok, i was practising soft these days? lol..i d enjoy music's accompany.
about JoCoMoNo Family, momo was addicted to maplestory, and i was addicted to audition.coco and momo was having their own little plan about facebook and i don understand why they wan to talk secretly like that, but to me, it;s alright, we should have out privacy, as long as it does not hurt other.
novel..reading a novel about eygption mystery, quite intriguing.
movie..nothing much.
audition..saving up to buy @cash. wan to buy 30k, but still hesitating. there is a sale in audi, i don know why they always have sale without any reason, but anyways, i love it, am i going to be a shopololic ? i dk.

wings^^

so bored that i played rdm blog.
so bored that i searched for dance online game.
so bored that i went to the high street 5.
so bored that i viewed their mall.
eek, so expenseive.
eek, so boring.
eek, i wan $$ LOL?

no feel about audi, (exams are coming) no feel about anything else, too. =.=
still dreaming about getting to be a world star and than etc...
and uncle hao also, i wonder if he got over hui.
lols, serve him right one lor, he so rude. (hui also wat)
today very funny.
P.E a lot ppl fall one.
donno why.
maybe the floor?
haha.
if tell uncle hao he will say i childish lor.
chey, like i care.
yawnz.wis changed name. ugly one. -Wis~breeze- so nice, why he wan change.
just joined a new fam. (TODDLERS) pro sia. better than TrickOrTreat lor.
haha, jm(ps hor)
and so many proes there. i also wonder how i got in. muahahhaa.
**LIFE COULD BE GREAT, SO GO AHEAD AND MAKE IT ----GREAT**
................. jyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjyjy

最初的梦想

最初的梦想是美好的，是单纯的，是快乐的。
最初的梦想，实现了？遗失了？
可是，为什么，还是这么担心呢？
是因为找不到方向？还是方向太远？
我活在梦想的阴影之中。

最初的纯洁是美好的，是美丽的，是幸福的。
最初的纯洁，掩藏了？暗淡了？
可是，为什么，还是如此无奈呢？
是因为无法面对未来？还是无法释怀过去？
我活在纯洁的可悲之中。

掩藏着，躲避着，我，迷失了。
追逐着，幻想着，我，多么可笑。

活着，是一种使命。
可是，我该如何完成它。

爱着，是一种祝福，
可是，我该如何面对它。

路人，匆匆地走了；留下的，是背影。
可我，却留连在这悲伤的背影；
是因为孤独，还是真心。

渴望这么一个朋友：
在你失落时，她与你同在，不需要安慰，不需要关怀；
只要为你递上一张纸巾，只要为你擦干眼泪；
在你得意时，她与你同在，不需要称赞，不需要鼓励；
只要为你祝福，为你微笑。

这样的朋友，一个就够了，这样的友谊，一次就够了；
不懂的珍惜的人，是可耻的；
不懂的追寻的人，是愚蠢的；

最初的梦想，失去了什么？得到了什么？
我徘徊在过去的美丽，我向往着未来的光环，
这一切的代价，是真心。

最近有点烦

很久没有上挂了，抱歉啊。只是最近很烦，AUDI想尽快Level Up, 买宠物，没用。
找到了一个新游戏，PerfectWorld, 听朋友说蛮不错的，载了后才发现，上当了。连买一件衣服都要￥￥的游戏，谁会要玩，气。
学校也不咋的，整天被老师骂，烦。要考试了，不能说烦，只是突然有些空虚，觉得没什么意思了。不过，学生嘛，就是为考试而生，抱怨也没用。
最近总觉得怪怪的，好像很失落的样子，可又不知道为什么。大概是因为我太敏感了吧，整天这样实在不好。
调整一下心情吧。
今天被罚站，笑，p班勒。受不了，浪费10分钟勒。害我数学试卷没做完，可恶。更可恶的是班长（你知道是谁）=。= 专挑不顺眼的记。=。=
可是。。。。。。我的确有讲话嘛，算了吧，就让它过去吧。
好了lah, 我去吃水果了。
呵呵呵呵呵////// ^-^

ah

ah, today very sian leh. Had a fight with CoCo, and then hurted my hand, and nearly fall asleep on the school bus( actually, the last one was fine) But still, i felt kinda depressed! >< Okay, mayeb i was wrong, but so was CoCo and NoNo, it's not like that she doesn't know how to buy fullscape, and it's so selfish to keep NoNo down when we were supposed to go GuZheng RM. -.- fine fine, ppl are selfish. And i guessed i am a little bit too tense after all. U know, ususally i don care about these lah, but...erm, everyone is selfish, right? So half half, no, should be third, third, third ^^ I think CoCo is on9, hiding? Donno leh. Nvm, we will find out tomorrow (btw, didn't play audition, feeling great)

lol!

donno wat happened to NoNo lah, stupid, keep insulting JoCoMoNo Family, i should change the name to JoCoMo family, chey, i care u lah. aihzz, so many woes these days, a little bit sian one leh. but too busy to bother this thingy lah, just let it go,NoNo wan to be Keyboard Worrier then be lah, zzz. ( btw,audition leveled up, did another story! ) =3 ^^

Q什么Q阿，劲什么舞团阿，本小姐不干了，垃圾，懒得理你。

可恶的垃圾游戏，不理你了，害我被骂，真讨厌。还有那什么QQ，有空！雨润你怎么回事，好好的Q什么Q阿，懒得理你，过时了，哎呀，不跟你吵，浪费我表情，切。

P.S audition leveling up, aihzz, should i really quit it?

800 MARVEL

wow, 800 MARVEL!LOLs, tomorrow will be the deadliine of our compo, i so nervous......actually, not really lah, it's just that i am deadly curious about Other's Compo and ( in fact, i am kinda scared that them will write a much better piece than me ) may be u can say i am lack of confidence or watever. But anyways, who cares. This is just a competition, and we still got many chances,right? (CoCo, i don't mean the c6 de chances) =.=|| BTW, today in audi ChuHua ask me to help her find cpl, LOLs, and i tried to find her some ShuaiGe thingy lah, but aihzz, very KeLian one, she dced and when on9 agn she never reply liao. Wat happened? I also donno, lols. ( And i have to play with the "pro" leh!! wa, he very "pro" de, c1 125bpm, i Imao lah!!) okok, we shouldn't tease others, psps hor~~~Aiyo, gtg already, Cya lah, and JYs!!! =3

I feel so cross!! I wan to play audition!! But i know i cant!! I wan to buy @cash!!But i know i cant!!aaa, this is getting sad......just like wat CoCo says, BORING.

pikachu!

****CHOSE THE MUSIC ABOVE AND COMBINE IT WITH PIKACHU ANIME.****

Audition name changed to --PIKACHU--, hehe ^^

CBAL

btw, check out some really cool pictures.XD from CABAL.

school.

'ello there. I am sitting comfortably in front of my laptop, having my luscious yogurt, whiling it's pulling cats and dogs outside the windows. Arh~~~how boring!I am kind of getting mad to play audition but in case u don't know, i do not allow myself to play it all the day. Well, u see, i have been dancing like siao in audi for a week already! and now, it's time to get back to work!!! ( actually, it's because CoCo have to do tuition hw cannot on9) LOL, why did i tell u my secret! ==|| hahas, say sry! Anyways,if u are giggling in front of the monitor screen, go ahead! Chey~~who cares!

Hey, u reminded me of the 800 words compo! Wat to write leh~~~(okay, i am just thinking) maybe i should write sth. just simply get rid of it, (I know even if i attened competition, i won't win) Yawnz, just like Chinese. I went to the competition hopefully, and assuming i could possibly, probably, might, maybe get a prize, but did i? NO!!! How disappointing! ==|| Okay, relax....nothing big deal, we just have to wrok hard next time, right? LALALA, right? LALALALAL..RIGHTTTTTTT?!!!erm, ya? GOOD! lols. So, just go ahead and JYs!

P.S: rain has stopped.

哈喽

玩热舞街和劲舞团的朋友们去看看吧,不是我写的,我也写不出来,汗.
http://user.qzone.qq.com/378159023/blog/1201594145

Black and White

I always dislike black and white( not that i pretend young and innocent, i just hate the sense of sadness and depress it gives me) and when i saw my frens all using these blackish, whitish template, i felt disgusted " coulours are plain" that's wat they say, i don believe it. Colour make up our life, sky is blue, grass is green, and flowers are red, when u lose all these beatuful colours, u lose ur life, ur happiness, ur hope, and wat u believe. I don;t like London, cos it is always grey, pavement, resturant, everything, even the sky is grey. I feel depressed and exhausted to see its darkness, " life need a colour" that's wat i always tell myself. Despite the fact that i don't live easier then others, i still struggle to cheer up, have my own way, why should i follow the crowd who is different from me? Some people might not like it, but it's their problem, not mine, and why i should care about the fools who know nothing? they thought that it would be cool, but is it? No, that's not what they really want. Open ur eyes, guys, look around you, love might not be everywhere, but i am sure u can find it easily. Warmth might not come everyminute, but i am sure u will come when u need it! Our life is made up bt surprises, it's a magic God performed, so why not follow ur heart's content? Why not follow urself? And this time, i followed my self, i chose this templete, this black and white thingy, yup, that's right, why? Because i saw beauty in it, and i am impressed wat Black and White could make.

audi

first day of holiday, suddenly feel empty, aihzz, MoMo these days donno wat happened, also get agitated, yawnz, and audition mall suddenly cannot buy clothes liao, zzz,so sian, i wan turn blackie leh, (but $$ no enough nah) and uncle auntie created their own fam, <~Memories-x3~> sth like that lah, they ask if i wanna join or not, lols, ranking so low de, nobody wan join de lah, and also, uncle auntie very noob de, maybe i proer then them, muahahhaha, zzz, btw, coco, why u never on9 de, our fam's destiny is on ur hands, ( tiny hands)( and fat one). anyways, could u just on9 and buy channel so can earn fam points? our ranking keep dropping one leh, zzz, u get banned, just gimme ur acc lah, i be fam master, muahahah.

audition agn

wa, finally exams over, phew~~~my results are fine, except i am not really contented with it, i mean, i could do better, (maybe i wasted too much time on audi)? lols, cooc also play audi, wat, and now she is banned from computer, eee, so sian. CoCo!if u are banned , and could no longer play audi, just give me ur acc, i help u train,zzz, and btw, u fam master leh! without u, we will all die in a awkward way.SO DO U UNDERSTAND OR NOT? zzz.

cheer up

well, must cheer up, since when did i become so sensitive anyways? i keep telling myself it's alright, but i still feel so sad, aihzzz, nvm, life has to go on, and i must strive to do my best!

newest version, fren test

<1> coco
<2> momo
<3> nono
<4> yurun
<5> xiangyu
<6> crystal
<7> inez
<8> OnlyHim(uncle)
<9> OnlyHer(auntie)
<10> XiaoGal

Q1, who is No.1?
lols, she is cooc. =.=

Q2, is number 4 ur best fren?
erm, okay lah. zzz, don be so 八卦leh.

Q3, if u were given a chance, what would u say to No.8
haha, I WOULD SAY: STUPID COWARD UNCLE! U THOUGHT U HACKER VERY POR IS IT! CHET, WHO PA WHO, U NOOB!

Q4, if u were given a chance, what would u say to No.9
muahah, I WOULD SAY: STUPID COWARD AUNITE! U THOGUHT U HACKER VERY PRO IS IT! U ARE JUST AS NOOB AS UNCLE!

Q5, who is No.3 doing now?
donno leh, maplestory? zzz

Q6, wat's No.10's hobby?
lols, i think audi? find cpl? and break? and find agn?

Q7, if u were given a chance, do u wan to be No.6's fren?
lols, why always ask this de. IF I WERE GIVEN A CHANCE, I DON WAN TO BE ANYONE'S FREN, COS 好朋友一个就够了。eee, sry crystal?

Q8, wat is the most thing u wan from No.7?
walaws, lame~~ wat i wan~~erm, i wan her audi acc! lols, psps inez.

Q9, do u find No.2 funny?
lols, i find u funny.

Q10, who is No.5's best fren.
yawnz, yurun bah. anything else?

随风

我的自由，回来了， 短暂，却珍贵；
我的思念，还在飘荡，无奈，可还单纯。
我知道，我变了，变得快乐了，因为我懂得珍惜；
我知道，我变了，变得随和了，因为人生太短暂，有些伤心事，就让它随风飘去吧。
可往日的热情还在，我的爱还在；
以前的记忆也还在，我的痛也还在。
只是，有些记忆，就让它随风飘去吧。

不过，我还是我自己，我还要做我自己，不变。

crusor

school!!

Today went to forgot-the-name school and had our chinese compo competition, aihzz, so sian one, their hall very big and got air-con, but the paper quite hard and i chose the topic of 白天鹅变成丑小鸭, lols, cos that one easiet. =.= i wrote 5 pages but i still don think it's a perfect jobs, Ivy chose that topic, too, and she said i copycat, lols, is she copycat lah! yawnz, anyways, jys?

放手

放手，放手，如何放手，倘若一阵风，就能将我的爱吹走，那我，还会痛吗？
离开，离开，如何离开，假如没有你，我就会快乐一点吗？
忘记，忘记，如何忘记，如果这只是一个梦，梦醒了，我还会跟以前一样吗？

不，无法放手，无法离开，无法忘记。

缘分，缘分，你总是在我决定放手时出现，让我不知所措。
幸福，幸福，你总是在我需要你是躲起来，让我独自面对。
爱情，爱情，你总是让我跟着你走，然后把我丢在路边，当我好不容易搭到一辆巴士时，再告诉我没带钱，当好心人帮我付了钱，我上车时，才发现，原来，搭错了车。

school!

wow, today we had out own video, it's quite exciting actually. the camera teacher gave us is kinda 古董,u know, those old old one, and big big also. =.= but~~~we still had a lot of fun. at first i was suppose to be the teacher, but then i laught too much~~~ according to Clara. aihzz, then clara became the teacher, and following QiaoXu, out last shoot is QiaoXu's, so we decide that we should let QiaoXu be the Ms Yang！wow, great, teacher is shorter then students, LOLs. Anyway, CoCo and NoNo was kinda shy, and CoCo don even know how to act like a bad student, zzz, nvm lor, so i switched CoCo with Clara, hahas, Clara was really a suitable person for a Bad Pupil! yeah~~~trying to find new template, this one no archive, lols, but let' take it easy, we got too much 压力for ourselves~~~

P.S CP haven come to school for 3 days, MoMo and NoNo really worries about him, =3

sians

I miss audi.
I wan to play maple.
I wan to go blogging.
I wan to download music.
I wan to MSN chat with frens.

aihzz, it can only be "i wan" but not, " i can", sad...even though i know i am blessed.

19

我总觉得我跟19这个数字有缘，呵呵，别问为什么。
生活中，太孤独了，缘分，即使是跟一个数字，也要珍惜。
别问，
为什么。
有时候，我并不在乎这一切，我的孤独，我的无奈，既然没有知音，那就不要勉强，最终，还是会受伤。
一个人，其实也挺好的，以前跟老潘在一块时间太久了，我都变得不独立了，呵呵，可是，那的确是一段美好的时光。
只要不孤独就好。
我错过了，不悔，受伤了，不恨，那些曾经伤害我的人，我原谅他们，那些曾经给我过快乐的人，谢谢，我的孤独，因你而消失。
你的消失，使我孤独。
不悔，不恨，我的爱，不变。
如果我们是朋友...
如果我们是陌生人...
如果我们有缘，那么，又何必悲伤，缘分，不尽。

o.o

Donnno why cannot post chatbox, something wrong? try to click TAGBOARD thingy, can? if cannot, pm me, i try to change, tytyt.

Anyways, if u really wan to say something, just leave message on MSN, apple_scent, remember? coco, attention, i REREMBER, hor, happy?lols.

So how is it? audi, maple? grandcahse? i have lost interest, and yet i wan to play.
lols. BORING DAYS AS USUAL, ADD A LITTLE FUN TO IT, PLS, LIFE NEED COLOUR.

glitterthingy

Little straw

sick, stay at home.
bored.
want to watch TV, bored.
want to read books, bored.
want to chat with frens, bored.
want to PK in audition, bored.

wat is not boring?
the life i had before?
wake up at six and carry the big schoolbag to school?
well, that's called life, and i am enjoying my life.

although, there maybe some difficulties or problems, or maybe i will face so troubles, for example, falling sick, but, i am still having my life, in my hands.