Guzheng. Exams Result. Secondary School. New Beginning.

Guess wat? I just had my Guzheng Grade6 Examination! I don't think it was a terrific performance and i was almost sure that i would lose my distinction, now i was just hoping for a decent merit. And~~~I got my PSLE results!! ^^
Well...it's quite good.( not the 290 sort of good ) Actually i expected more then that, but nevermind, this could satisfy me too. Anyways...Mum was totally happy about it ( i only i could get a few marks more ) and it was just nice to fit Dunman's requirement. I hope i could get in. Grandpa and Grandma were persistent that i go to Nanyang because it was visited by prime minister of China, Hu Jing Tao. Well~~~fine...I appreciate their support...and don't blame me if i cant get in.
Think about it~~~even if i got into those fancy schools, i would be in the last class. Well...not that i minded the face thing, i have got used to the environment of staying in first class, with every teacher reminding us that we are the "best" in Hong Wen. I think i would felt very discouraged if i got into last class in Dunman. ( But again, it's Dunman's last class! And don't forget they have a huge library!! It's fantastic!!! )
And also...i wondered what will happen if i joined Dunman's Guzheng team. It would be awakward. The girl who you kicked in DSA came back~~~LOL, i felt contented about this idea...but i don't think the Guzhen teacher would. In fact, i didn't like him so much. If only it could be some one nice and young like Peng Lao Shi...then i would love to join the team!! ( well...it's a "Gold-Of-Honour" Guzheng team afterall ) I wondered if i would fit in in the new school. I always stick with Coco,Momo, and Nono from the past, but now, without them and without the foolish jokes and silly tricks, i doubted my social ability. Maybe i will...maybe i will find a place somehow and somewhat, and maybe i will get to know my classmates really well. Humm...yup!
Another thing that scared me is NJC ( the school isn't scary, the broading system is ) I mean...i have never gone to a broading school before. ( the trip to U.S.A? oh...please ) I did went out with school for 2 times without my parents, and i lived with my friends in hotel, but it was supposed to be some learning journey and it was totally different from BROADING!! I would have to stick with my dom-mates 10 hours ( at least, if u add the sleeping time ) per day and 30 (28, or 31) days per month!!! And guess how many months are there in one year? You got it! 12MONTHS! Ah...i guess i might suffocate if i went to NJC. But then~~~it could be called an experience, too. Probably not a wonderful one, but it make ppl learn soomething. Mum stayed in broading school, too. ( in high school and university ) She says it train ppl to be stronger and smarter. ( oh...it that true? ) And she encouraged me to be dependent. How can i refuse her? If i really happened to go to NJC, i guess i would just have to try my best ( to survive? that sounds scary ) and if i am going to any other school, i will try my best too!!

Is it time?

After exams,it's just all fun.Malacca,uno,maplestory,handphone,inter-class and inter-school.(well...despite the fact that our school lost the inter-school,i would still consider that as a form of enjoyment).I was bored and unsatisfied long time ago.Come to think about it,i would rather want busy revisions and homework then this relexing schedule.Really,when i am playing this and that,i felt that i have lost something,something important to me.I hate this feeling.It is a concoction of confusion and fear.I feared that one day when i remenber this leisure time,i would regret myself for having such a long break.I know it by heart,and yet i don't want to give the fun up.
Momo say today is the last day of school.She said that we will never meet each other afterwards.It was pretty upsetting,but we just have to face it.I have no idea what will be waiting for me,but i should not give myself up now.I know that i am not perfect.I was stubbon and naughty,and sometimes childish.I was scared of loneliness,and a bit bad-tempered.I hate betrayal,i hate unfairness,but i wasn't fair all the time either.Maybe there are two people inside me.One is on the justice's side while the other is selfish and annoying.When they act together,everything seem to be fine but when one of them outraged the other,i become unbalanced.I live in a world that can be called neither fair or unfair.I see the world spinning and the people changing.However,it is nothing that we can do about.That's why,i decided that i should at least do my best.I should at least be a person that have the ability to help this world.I am not sure that i can do it all by one person's strength,for i am neither superman or wonderwomen.However,there must be a start.It can anyone.And i,am going to move towards my believe.

不能说的秘密

昨天看了不能说的秘密。报纸上说这部戏任显生嫩，毕竟是周董的处女作，可是奇怪的是，我并没有在意这些，因为已经有了悲伤结局的心理准备，我淡然地看了下去，可是没想到，原来最后的结局是快乐美好的。。。

我没有哭，很高兴自己没有哭。我讨厌自己如此动情地模样，仿佛中了谁的圈套，明明知道这是编剧的可恶，可仍无法调节心理，就好像早上醒来虽然知道自己要迟到了却仍舍不得起床的感觉。

我决不是小雨的那种性格，温柔文雅，还带着一些忧郁。也只有碰见JAY的时候，小雨才会打开心中的那扇窗，拥抱窗外的阳光。看得出来，小雨是真心喜欢JAY的。她不是一个活泼明媚的学生，可是却是个痴情的女生。当看到她孤独无助地哭泣时，我暗暗地感到心痛，我总以为自己不会像她一样傻，可是在爱情面前又有谁是理智的呢。。。我们都是受了伤的刺猬，为了更好地保护自己而刺痛别人。小雨就是那一只刺猬，伤痕累累，到最后连爱都不敢相信。别人都以为她很坚强，很勇敢，可是他们又怎么会知道最疼是小雨呢？当JAY在悲伤地弹琴时，他又怎么会知道小雨在窗口默默地流泪呢？误会，可恶的误会，就是这一件件的误会撕碎了小雨和JAY脆弱的执着。

还好，他们的是那么的深，以至于JAY由忧郁化为的勇敢。他不是个死心塌地的人，可是他是坚持的。他还没有和她说他爱她，他还没牵她的手，他还没陪她一起看日出，看日落，幸福地度过一生。这些，他都没有做到，可是他相信他能够做到。就算它们之间相差二十年，就算他们是不同时代的人，就算她一次又一次地误解了他，他还是爱她的，而她也无法忘记他。相爱的人不一定能在一起，可是这要坚持了，努力了，就算最终没有在一块儿，也无悔。而他们在结尾时，终于得以守护于彼此的身边。