hmmm okay, i've been wanting to change my blog skin for quite some time, but then i just couldn't be bothered with all the tedious procedure, and since nobody's reading blog anyway, i'll just leave it at that. it's quite a nice skin actually :) hmm i have a fever now, pretty tired and dizzy. and i just watched mama, which kinda sucked. i really don't know what to expect from kpop now. i've thinking for a while, since im so laidback, (as i appeared to be), and sometimes i wonder about things which have absolutely no answer. so yeah...it's called daydreaming huh? haha anyway, i shall be who i am and work hard, right?

john mayer your body is a wonderland

something about canteen

when you talk about a school or an university, canteen seems to be one of the crucial criteria on deciding its qualification. elite schools have big and luxurious canteen which fully establishes its well-known prestige while some schools have small, cramped and dungeon-like canteens. although it is rather exaggerating to compare a place where you have your meals to a "dungeon", it is commonly acknowledged that some canteens are simply unfavorable in its conditions. speaking of conditions, a canteen is usually judged by its appearance, the food it offers, its overall hygiene and the students who occupy it. as beautiful or luxurious as a canteen may be, it is still based on the fact that it is there to provide a comfortable environment for the people in it. a canteen is no difference from a restaurant, without the presence of respectable patrons, even the most high-class restaurant will seem lackluster one way or another. it is cruel to say this, but in reality, everybody is being judged by everyone else. you shouldn't appear in the wrong place, people think, because they never do so either. and sometimes, going to canteen is a tough thing. it requires a careful planning, a good timing, and some luck. nobody likes to eat alone, despite the countless "eat-alone" campaigns and their pretentious support. everyone likes to be with their friends, in their cliques, to feel safe and comfortable, even though that means limiting yourself in choosing what you want to order or when do you want to order it. privacy seems like nothing in the bustling canteen, filled with noises coming from all directions. afterall, this is the place where all sorts of talk is exchanged by students and even teachers. you can easily spot a person's who feeling down by the way she eats or speaks. silence is never a good thing in canteen, because it signals that the person is indeed eating her food, which is no fun at all. just like students, teachers have their own spot in the canteen as well. instead of having their lunch in the canteen, they choose to pack their food and enjoy it in cool and spacious office. eating in canteen is a hideous thing for them as it not only involves dreadful queuing time and not-so-cozy benches, but also the occasional stare and exclaim of awe from the students passing by who happen to know them, or rather, happen not. the awkwardness when a teacher gets squeezed in a line of students, staring into space or pretends to check her phone is unbearable, the desperation of trying to find and connect with some students that she might have taught, and the disappointment when that particular student ignores or chooses to ignore eye contact with her is simply unbearable. hence,just having a cup of coffee, sit in their little area and chat with their fellow colleagues in the canteen seems to be a better and wiser choice for most teachers. in this place where the students seem to be the majorities, it is smarter for the teachers, the minorities, to stay together for their own survival. when you seem a single teacher sitting at one corner, eating all by herself, as a student, you can't help but laugh a little inside her heart, assuming that she's being miserable on her own. but when you see a group of teachers, normally from a department, sit together and chat merrily (although we hardly understand the subject of their conversation) over cups of tea, you can't help but feel tense, or even frightened when you spot your own teacher being one of them. it if funny how people react to different circumstances, but it is true. canteen is not just a place for food and relaxation, but also a venue to mix in, to mingle, and to adapt. canteen's like a jungle.