Guzheng. Exams Result. Secondary School. New Beginning.

Guess wat? I just had my Guzheng Grade6 Examination! I don't think it was a terrific performance and i was almost sure that i would lose my distinction, now i was just hoping for a decent merit. And~~~I got my PSLE results!! ^^
Well...it's quite good.( not the 290 sort of good ) Actually i expected more then that, but nevermind, this could satisfy me too. Anyways...Mum was totally happy about it ( i only i could get a few marks more ) and it was just nice to fit Dunman's requirement. I hope i could get in. Grandpa and Grandma were persistent that i go to Nanyang because it was visited by prime minister of China, Hu Jing Tao. Well~~~fine...I appreciate their support...and don't blame me if i cant get in.
Think about it~~~even if i got into those fancy schools, i would be in the last class. Well...not that i minded the face thing, i have got used to the environment of staying in first class, with every teacher reminding us that we are the "best" in Hong Wen. I think i would felt very discouraged if i got into last class in Dunman. ( But again, it's Dunman's last class! And don't forget they have a huge library!! It's fantastic!!! )
And also...i wondered what will happen if i joined Dunman's Guzheng team. It would be awakward. The girl who you kicked in DSA came back~~~LOL, i felt contented about this idea...but i don't think the Guzhen teacher would. In fact, i didn't like him so much. If only it could be some one nice and young like Peng Lao Shi...then i would love to join the team!! ( well...it's a "Gold-Of-Honour" Guzheng team afterall ) I wondered if i would fit in in the new school. I always stick with Coco,Momo, and Nono from the past, but now, without them and without the foolish jokes and silly tricks, i doubted my social ability. Maybe i will...maybe i will find a place somehow and somewhat, and maybe i will get to know my classmates really well. Humm...yup!
Another thing that scared me is NJC ( the school isn't scary, the broading system is ) I mean...i have never gone to a broading school before. ( the trip to U.S.A? oh...please ) I did went out with school for 2 times without my parents, and i lived with my friends in hotel, but it was supposed to be some learning journey and it was totally different from BROADING!! I would have to stick with my dom-mates 10 hours ( at least, if u add the sleeping time ) per day and 30 (28, or 31) days per month!!! And guess how many months are there in one year? You got it! 12MONTHS! Ah...i guess i might suffocate if i went to NJC. But then~~~it could be called an experience, too. Probably not a wonderful one, but it make ppl learn soomething. Mum stayed in broading school, too. ( in high school and university ) She says it train ppl to be stronger and smarter. ( oh...it that true? ) And she encouraged me to be dependent. How can i refuse her? If i really happened to go to NJC, i guess i would just have to try my best ( to survive? that sounds scary ) and if i am going to any other school, i will try my best too!!

Is it time?

After exams,it's just all fun.Malacca,uno,maplestory,handphone,inter-class and inter-school.(well...despite the fact that our school lost the inter-school,i would still consider that as a form of enjoyment).I was bored and unsatisfied long time ago.Come to think about it,i would rather want busy revisions and homework then this relexing schedule.Really,when i am playing this and that,i felt that i have lost something,something important to me.I hate this feeling.It is a concoction of confusion and fear.I feared that one day when i remenber this leisure time,i would regret myself for having such a long break.I know it by heart,and yet i don't want to give the fun up.
Momo say today is the last day of school.She said that we will never meet each other afterwards.It was pretty upsetting,but we just have to face it.I have no idea what will be waiting for me,but i should not give myself up now.I know that i am not perfect.I was stubbon and naughty,and sometimes childish.I was scared of loneliness,and a bit bad-tempered.I hate betrayal,i hate unfairness,but i wasn't fair all the time either.Maybe there are two people inside me.One is on the justice's side while the other is selfish and annoying.When they act together,everything seem to be fine but when one of them outraged the other,i become unbalanced.I live in a world that can be called neither fair or unfair.I see the world spinning and the people changing.However,it is nothing that we can do about.That's why,i decided that i should at least do my best.I should at least be a person that have the ability to help this world.I am not sure that i can do it all by one person's strength,for i am neither superman or wonderwomen.However,there must be a start.It can anyone.And i,am going to move towards my believe.

不能说的秘密

昨天看了不能说的秘密。报纸上说这部戏任显生嫩，毕竟是周董的处女作，可是奇怪的是，我并没有在意这些，因为已经有了悲伤结局的心理准备，我淡然地看了下去，可是没想到，原来最后的结局是快乐美好的。。。

我没有哭，很高兴自己没有哭。我讨厌自己如此动情地模样，仿佛中了谁的圈套，明明知道这是编剧的可恶，可仍无法调节心理，就好像早上醒来虽然知道自己要迟到了却仍舍不得起床的感觉。

我决不是小雨的那种性格，温柔文雅，还带着一些忧郁。也只有碰见JAY的时候，小雨才会打开心中的那扇窗，拥抱窗外的阳光。看得出来，小雨是真心喜欢JAY的。她不是一个活泼明媚的学生，可是却是个痴情的女生。当看到她孤独无助地哭泣时，我暗暗地感到心痛，我总以为自己不会像她一样傻，可是在爱情面前又有谁是理智的呢。。。我们都是受了伤的刺猬，为了更好地保护自己而刺痛别人。小雨就是那一只刺猬，伤痕累累，到最后连爱都不敢相信。别人都以为她很坚强，很勇敢，可是他们又怎么会知道最疼是小雨呢？当JAY在悲伤地弹琴时，他又怎么会知道小雨在窗口默默地流泪呢？误会，可恶的误会，就是这一件件的误会撕碎了小雨和JAY脆弱的执着。

还好，他们的是那么的深，以至于JAY由忧郁化为的勇敢。他不是个死心塌地的人，可是他是坚持的。他还没有和她说他爱她，他还没牵她的手，他还没陪她一起看日出，看日落，幸福地度过一生。这些，他都没有做到，可是他相信他能够做到。就算它们之间相差二十年，就算他们是不同时代的人，就算她一次又一次地误解了他，他还是爱她的，而她也无法忘记他。相爱的人不一定能在一起，可是这要坚持了，努力了，就算最终没有在一块儿，也无悔。而他们在结尾时，终于得以守护于彼此的身边。

back from malaysia.

Yeah,finally we are back in singapore.
I'm not saying that malaysia is not good,it is just that when u are away from ur old environment,u just couldn't help but miss it.However,i did have a lot of fun at malaysia.
Well,the fun includes the shopping,too.I bought dozens of cute accessories and food.Actually they can all be bought from singapore or china or anyplace else,but i enjoy the freedom of shopping.I can chose what i want and buy it without further thinking or worry,and i don't have to worry about the saving money part because i know i can spend what i want.Also,it was nice to browse with my friends.They gave u opinions and advices and u don't necessarily have to listen to them all the time!haha...Anyways,the journey was interesting and exciting and the arrangement was proper and appropriate( except the hotel-air-cond-so-cold and the arrive-at-singapore-so-late part )Luckily i brought my handphone with me the whole journey or i will be bored to death!It was just so noisy on the bus and there was nothing to do but sleep without music and uno cards( and eating ).
Talking about sleeping,coco have sent me pictures of ppl sleeping.( Clara, Shiying, LinLaoShi...)Lol, they all sleep with a style.I wonders if anyone took picture of me sleeping( i hope it won't be awful ) but to think about it again,who cares!Take then take lor.
We also fought for showering order,and at last we decided that scissors paper stone will be the best solution.Lol.( before we realise about the hair-dryer )and i found out that coco like to watch violent TV shows and nono hate noises.
The food was nice and just enough for all of us.( Mrs Chiam still say have to play game to eat food,i think that rule doesn't work for our table cos there wasn't much food left afterall ) and i just loved the breakfast at the hotel( but i didn't really take much due to the awkward staring from coco and nono )I also learnt one thing from the trip,it is There Is A Lot Of Ants Plus Mosquitoes Plus Spiders At The Village.I also bought a beautiful necklace. ( LinLaoShi bought a funny fan-hat that can a hat and a fan )The lunch was awesome,too!Guess what,buffet!!( not the Mrs Chiam's buffet )Guess again,free ice-cream!!!( but somebody also bought ice-cream )Guess for the third time,I took everything in my sight!!!!( except the salad )Lol,haha.After that,we went back to bus and set off for singapore.
So,it was kinda fun,hor?Well,i don't know.But when we were heading for malaysia,i thought that maybe this trip would be the final time.After a few weeks,we would be separate,and we would head for different paths.I wasn't saying this just for the sake of expressing,but talking about this seriously.I don't hate this class,and i don't love it.When staying in this group,i have witnessed many unfair things and also many kind acts.This world was an unfair world itself,but at the same time a beautiful place.I would rather believe it is beautiful then to think of it as an ugly,dirty,injustice one.I would rather chose to do something meaningful and helpful rather then hurting or harming.Maybe it was just my idealistic thoughts and will one day turn into practical thinking,but at least i faced it.I faced the fact that we are all changing and i faced the truth that we are leaving each other.I wasn't an extremely brave person,i wasn't an extremely smart person,either.l was just i,a girl who had dreams and believes,a girl who wanted to be happy.It was pretty simple,and true,just like life was supposed to be simple and true,of course,for a happy person.

wow!

Yeah!Finally the exams are over!
Today is higher chinese, the last paper.I have been planning what i am going to do after the exams since yesterday and now i can finally relax!But somehow, i felt a bit uneasy,too,for the fullstop of exams mean the approach of results and even more,separation. Not that i have addicted to my friends,but i really enjoy the good time we had,and when i think about leaving them,i felt...well,i felt disappointed,as if i have lost my friendship.However,it's not true.I have not lost my friendship,it's just that we all have to move on to our paths and we still can see each other, right? Or play games together or chat on MSN.Well,i wondered about the playing game togethrer part,for my audition suddenly seem to break down( with all my cash items!) and i just cant download maplestory. In addition, i have topped up 30k in my account!!Am i going to be stuck there, forever? No!!! I hate the thought of having to stare at my cash and got nothing to do. I just wan to have some fun, and audition or maplestory is the only that i can relax myself. Why, why have this happened! I mean,i am supposed to enjoy myself crazily with my friends and laugh and cheeer and chit-chat with them. But now i have to redownload and all, aihzz...Still, i was quite glad that i found a new templete for my blog and did a lot of decoration plus new attachment plus tagging. Lol.And i was quite grateful that i can use my computer now!!( wait, is laptop! my dear laptop!) ^^

let's work hard for our beloved ones, our countries, and ourselves!!!

yeah.
today is Children's day in singapore plus 中国国庆. love it!!
anyways,i really enjoy the whole 国庆. very proud to be a chinese@!
my laptop is locked up, so cannot play audition. but then, i still can use mum's laptop for a while.
PSLE is approaching.very nervous.
i think i didn't really perform that well during oral and listening comprehension, that's why i need to improve my paper 1 and paper 2. i got no choice.
are they going to be hard? i don't know.
i hope since and english could be easy. not saying that i can deal with extremely hard chinese and mathematics, it's just that i am a bit weaker in science and english.
i think i've tried quite hard on improving them.but there are still so much things that i donno,i still got to learn a lot sia.
and i still donno wat school to go to. lol. i am serious.i wondered if any of my classmates have decided. cos they all look so...err, confidnent? i donno leh.
i never really worried about it back in shanghai.mum had always helped me in deciding. but now i have to depend on myself.
i think this is a challenge, but i am glad to face it.
anyways, why worry.? it all depends on a PSLE result, doesn't it?
wow, marvellous. the performance is terrific!