Run away

every time i tried to run, i went back to the original point.
why? i would ask myself, why am i doing this? there's no answer, because i wasn't looking for one. i know exactly why i'm playing this endless game, it was my own beliefs that pulled me back to the same spot. sometimes u just think too much, and everything got tangled up, too complicated to be solved. so i just run away from it, run and run and run, until i'm tired and started to miss the idea of a shelter, a perch to hide.so i went back and pretended nothing had happened, then it turned out to be a vicious cycle going on and on. it was a chain effect, unbreakable, and every time i attempted to escape from it, i was dragged back and forced to start all over. i hated it, i yearned for a change, so i pulled together the fragments of courage and began a new journey, pretending that it wasn't too late for a decision, and pretending that i would success this time, that the dawn is not far...indeed it was, but i never really believed so.