river flows in you

there are really a lot of amazing people living in this world, just looking at them makes me feel embarrassed and uselss. what am i doing when they are working so hard for their dreams? what is my dream? when will my day come? i wonder if i'm ever be someone like them, or just be myself. i had never wanted to be the best in everything, i simply wanted to do well in areas that i like, leave no regrets and live happily. that's all i've ever wanted, and yet it was so hard to fulfill it. i guess humans are just greedy by nature, they can't help but want more for themselves. it's something that i tried to break free but could never break free off. in this world, it's hard to live just being yourself. i wonder if i'll ever be somebody, or just lying on my bed, resigned, tired, and cynical of this world, writing miserable entries like every other lonely person in this world. no, that's not what i want. i wanna sing, i wanna dance, i wanna enjoy this moment without worrying for the next. i wanna eat all the food i like and travel to all the places on earth. i wanna live a happy life just for once, and make the world a better place. i don't mind being sad, but i'll never lose faith in myself, i'll be evergreen, never fades. okay?